Mommy is tired

What a loooong day! If you are a parent of young kids, you know what that means. It means it is 10 pm, and your kids are still awake. Or it means it is 6 am, and your baby just fell asleep for the first time all night. It means you have not sat down all day--literally--since you woke up at 5 am. It means you are so tired, you don't even know how to rest. You are tired. You are tired of your kids. You are tired of your job. You are tired of everything at this moment. You are tired because you need sleep but you also need emotional support...somehow...somewhere.

So where do you turn at 9, 10 or 11 pm, when you finally get a brief moment to be you again? Social Media?...I don't recommend it. It's more depressing than supportive. TV?...maybe, if you have a favorite show or channel that makes you laugh and relax and chill. But keep in mind that TV and all media feed you ideas that may not be helpful during this time of sheer exhaustion. For example, you are not pretty enough, thin enough, rich enough, successful enough, lucky enough, happy enough, a good enough mom, etc. Your best friend?...Yes. She knows you. She understands how you feel. She will laugh...and cry...with you. Your husband?...Yes. But he is likely distracted. Sorry guys, but it's true. Don't hate me for saying it. And he is tired too, of course! So 11:00 at night may not be the best time to start a convo with your hubby about the one hundred broken pieces of your heart.

The Lord gave me one verse tonight. Psalm 130:5: "I wait for the LORD, my whole being waits, and in His word I put my hope." So it was pretty clear that God wants me to wait for Him. Wait on the Lord. Be in His Word, and hope in His Word. Focus on Him...not myself and my circumstances. But if I am waiting on God and hoping in God, that means I am not alone! We constantly feel alone and lonely in this world, even at times when we are surrounded by crowds of people. But God has promised He never leaves us alone. So if we feel alone, it is likely because we are not looking to God to fulfill His promises to us. If we do what this verse says and wait for God, then we don't need to wait for anything else or anyone else! That is good news because aren't you tired of being disappointed by things and people in your life?!! God is the only one who will ALWAYS be there for you.

So in your fatigue and stress and chaos and irritation, at the end of the day (or night), say a prayer of waiting. I wait for you, Lord. I hope in your Word. You alone are my hope.